It's not, but it's almost.and right now that off-season looks to be about six weeks away. So, in the off-season, it'll basically be me sitting in the office all day with little to do but get Flash shit done. I have been paid to sit around the office all day and do nothing. That means a lot of time for a lot of guys to sit around, watch videos on their phones, and gripe about how boring it is. The busy period brings in so much money that they absolutely do not give a DAMN what you do in the off-season as long as you're at the office and on-call. Some of that time will be spent in the office having nothing to do but wait for jobs that may not show up at all.Įvery other company I'd ever worked for always had a "Time to Lean, Time to Clean" mentality where any lapse in productivity was answered by handing out bullshit busy work. However, the payoff to all of this life-wrecking work in the summer is the relatively chill remainder of the year. So, animation productivity ain't gonne be much right now. Summer has the potential to be three months of non-stop "get up, go to work, come home, shower, sleep, repeat". Sometimes the shit really hits the fan and I'm clocking 14-16 hour days. It's summer crunch time right now and it's not at all uncommon to work twelve-hour days. PLUS, this new job has some perks that may help my animation drive tremendously. I'm getting my shit back together and the crippling depression is nowhere to be seen. It's very hard work at times but I don't hate it. I still have a commute, but it's only 90 minutes round-trip and the money is good. Now, I'm two months into this new company in Louisville. Thankfully, I held that shit together long enough to get my license. As I believe people with depression already know, sometimes it takes all of your energy just to hold your shit together. Needless to say, I wasn't getting a whole lot of animation done.
I wound up staying there for seven months and my depression reached all-time-high-gun-in-the-mouth levels. It really only paid marginally better than my unemployment did, so I was basically just trapped there until I got in the time needed for my license. It wasn't hard, but I hated every second of it. However, the pay was shit and the work was more about just getting through the day than anything else. On paper, it was exactly the kind of job I wanted. I did get into a small local company afterward, though. Looking back on it, I should have enjoyed it more as the vacation it was, but I was in no place mentally or emotionally to effectively use that time. What followed was two months of unemployment and staying on the knife edge of being broke. Eventually, that wave hit me and I got served my pink slip with five months of work experience still left to go before I could be considered a prime candidate for hiring. The company had made some unwise business decisions and wound up having to lay off pretty much all of their helpers. Unfortunately, that ride ended after seven months.
It was all about getting the skills and time in that I needed to get my license. It was a busy job with slightly better pay than my last job and a two-hour commute. I started out as a helper in a commercial HVAC company in Louisville. I got into the HVAC trade and life has taken many twists and turns from there. The productivity slack of the last year and a half or so has been more about my IRL career than anything. The honest truth is that he ain't shit and I'm at a point in my life where there aren't a lot of pieces left to pick up. I'll still crush him if he ever shows up, I just know he's not going to. I happily killed his entire online art career, stranded him eight hundred miles from home, and provided consultation that very well might have left him homeless and sucking dicks behind a Waffle House for heroin money. He may still be a human garbage bag filled with diarrhea and leaking out the bottom, but I feel that there's really only so many times you can piss on a grave before you start needing to move on. Honestly, "Fuck CE-Rap Day" isn't really about him anymore. I got this big-ass news post to fill in the gaps.
There turned out to be way less alcohol, way more productivity, and way less explanation of the last year than I had planned.but that's okay. Well, my yearly "Fuck CE-Ray Day" stream didn't go quite the way I had planned.